I thought I would never experience this pain again. That empty feeling,lost which way do I go feeling. I am alienated from my 2 brothers. I haven't seen my niece in 10 years. I have people hating me because they only have 1 side to a story. My Brothers not mind.
My so-called ex sister-in-law who was married to my youngest brother Robin,is out of her tree. She lies and still drinks and now doing drugs. From what she told me my brother is a pot/pill head also. Here,I get judge as a teen for doing drugs and weed/now its ok for my younger brother to do it? I'm the bad apple in the tree. I am so clean. I don't drink. and the drug I do take are from my dr. I take them so I don't feel depressed.
When will the madness stop. Why am I still in the shitty life and still feel sick about what I have done over 30 years ago. My brothers still have women and guy who used them. It's ok for them to keep being bad and having women use them for their money. But,me. I'm trying to live a clean good life. by getting all the badness out of my life. People who have used and hurt me in the past.
