Here comes that feeling again

I thought I would never experience this pain again. That empty feeling,lost which way do I go feeling. I am alienated from my 2 brothers. I haven't seen my niece in 10 years. I have people hating me because they only have 1 side to a story. My Brothers not mind.

My so-called ex sister-in-law who was married to my youngest brother Robin,is out of her tree. She lies and still drinks and now doing drugs. From what she told me my brother is a pot/pill head also. Here,I get judge as a teen for doing drugs and weed/now its ok for my younger brother to do it? I'm the bad apple in the tree. I am so clean. I don't drink. and the drug I do take are from my dr. I take them so I don't feel depressed.

When will the madness stop. Why am I still in the shitty life and still feel sick about what I have done over 30 years ago. My brothers still have women and guy who used them. It's ok for them to keep being bad and having women use them for their money. But,me. I'm trying to live a clean good life. by getting all the badness out of my life. People who have used and hurt me in the past.

Called The Brother Kevin today.

I called my so-called Kevin Schewire at West Hampton Auto Salvage a little while ago. Sarcastic prick was so nasty to me on the phone, said that he doesn't want anything to do with me. That pissed me off. What can I say, my whole family is messed up.

The Pain is setting in

I feel so alone in the world right now. My Husband Don doesn't want to hear me vent out what has happen in my past life. He hates Beth,cause of all the trouble she cause me in My Life. To ask her why did she do it. She would grin/laugh and would say"Good for the stupid Bitch. She(meaning me)deserve everything she got and I would have done more."

She doesn't care what happens to your life,just as long as she has it better then you do.

It Hurts

Not that the storm has died off,the pain and healing starts.

 I have lost my 2 younger Brothers Kevin and Robin. To the ills of women and society evil. I may never see my niece Alexandra,who is age 15.

What really gets to me is the people I thought were my friends and family. I have been betrayed all my adult life,by a woman known as Beth Anne Lord. a.k.a. Beth Reynolds. She bullied me/hurt my feelings/lied to me and others around me to get her sick way. She got 1/2 of her fathers money and she will not rest till she has the moneys owed to her/her brother Older Scott, from her mothers' dead parents. Seems to me that her Aunt Margie does the same thing. Bullies people and steals money.

The evil is over.

Now that the evil is over. Now I can get on with my life. I may have regrets,but I hope they will pass. The one I knew as my best friend Ms Beth Anne Reynolds Lord, couldn't take the truth about the shit she had cause me. Like Amy Stockwell/Tony Geremia/my Ex-Husband Gus Rappold. all the lies about me and what the did to me were exposed.
I went thru 45 + years listening to Beth shit. I had her back,she never had mind. For all I know now she will get an order of protection against me,for what I said. I did nothing wrong. The wrong doing was her and her greed for money,power and lies. I hope 1 day it all comes back to bite her. More later.