April 17,2010 saturday night 12:11am

Hello world, I just found out how really evil and vicious people can be. Facebook can help and hurt you. I asked one little thing about Duane Stearns. About how much his mortgage was.

 Now he could have said. "I wish not to disgust this." But I believe all things for a reason. I wrote him an e-mail about his sister-in-law/my ex friend. Mrs. Amy Stockwell-Stearns. Told him what she said at my poor mothers wake. Hello Cunt. It's not about you. It's about my mom. My mom got 1 thing right about Ms Amy. She was and is no good. It's much what I said in the e-mail. That she was mad at me about me having sex with a guy she really liked and wanted to marry. But Amy like her Hubby Mike.
 Like to play the field. Amy, it really doesn't matter. See when I had an affair everyone left me,and they took took everything. Money was a big thing. I told Duane her true colors. Amy is pissed because she married poor and her 2 friends Rochelle/Brigit don't have to work. They married well.
Truth be told, people have always told me to shut up and be quiet. Who is Amy to tell me what to say and write and do. Donny said it best. wha wha. I deserve better. No one reads my blog, so I can write pretty much anything. My Fault is I try to help people. I felt sorry for amy. But if I helped Rochelle or anyone else. The cat crawls came out.

Thursday April 15-2010

Well it's 1:48 am on this cold early morning. in April. I turned 50 on Easter Sunday this yr. Big deal. My parents are both dead. My 2 younger brothers are @ war with me. I my mom's family is fueding over money. That's nothing new. I thought when I was 50, I was going to be married with grown kids and mabe a grand kids or 2 and my life would be on L.I. Oh how worng I was for day dreaming in 3rd grade. Yeah,that's pretty much how I went though school. DREAMING.

I scared of dieing alone,or Donny throwing me out like Gus did with his mom. Bitch, never cared about her SON from age 9 up. Then Bang! I have an affair(so did her son)and they are calling the cops and my folks to evict me. What balls, they have. All the head games. But enough of that night.

I'm going to an Celebrity Bus Drivers Acadmey in June for 3 days. To learn if I have what it takes to be one of these elite drivers. Ok,so I know I can drive these monsters on wheels. The inner making of them is overwhelming. You have to have a PHD is generators/AC/Plumbing/Satelite Systems/invertors and lord knows what else. If I bomb,I don't remember shit. Or if I don't impress the panel of people they have. I won't get to drive one of these gaints,much less get a dream job of a life time. I was made to drive big impressive machines. Some ppl are born to be stars/I'm a driver to the drive.

If I don't do well that $1,000.00 gone plus $500.00 in motel and diesel fuel.